Tuesday, November 18, 2014

31 Weeks

Sorry this photo is blurry - it's from my phone.  The better version is on my camera, which is in the other room, which I'm currently too lazy to get up and grab.  So - this will have to do.  :)

First of all, the "31 weeks" thing is annoying to me...it's too many weeks to do the math of...but I feel like I'm supposed to say it that way because that's how I've always counted until a year old.  Whatever.

Also, those Christmas jammies are just to die for.  She is so darn cute in them.  And they're so soft.  Can't wait to decorate the tree with this girl - and see Santa - and watch her rip open gifts.  Just cannot wait to start new traditions and introduce her to old ones.  I love this time of year so much.

Lastly.  Can we just discuss two posts in one week?!  Tooting my own horn here.

Have a great Tuesday, Friends!

Monday, November 17, 2014

Monday {Night} Musings

Anyone else holding on for dear life, riding the crazy train, and just really hoping Thanksgiving hurries on up?

Holy wow.  I'm driving the struggle bus lately.  Just trying as hard as I can to keep it all together.

{notice how I just went ahead and slipped on in here without mention of my (yet again) months long absence from the blogosphere?}

Here's the deal.  I've determined a photo dump is what you people want...not listening to my random-ness tonight...so, here ya go.

This kid can eat.  She loves her food.

This is serious.  Those pigtails are a riot. 
matching Halloween outfits, matching pigtails, matching attitudes
Little Miss was a lady bug for Halloween.  It was the cutest bug I've ever seen. 
The weather has gotten SO cold this week...we've had to break out the winter hat.  I hate the cold.  But I love the hat.  And I love the girl even more. 
SEVEN months old.  Simply unbelievable.
I'm really fortunate because we have a live in professional photographer.  I have literally thousands of pictures of Kamdyn.  But of all of them, this one ranks right up there as my most favorite.  I love her in blue.  I love the little mischief that's in her eyes in this picture.  I love her dimple.  I just love her.

That's all for today.  Be back this week with more updates.  Promise.

Friday, September 5, 2014


I officially suck as a mommy-blogger.  I'm sorry everyone - a little someone has been keeping me from this little place I used to call home.

I think about blogging every day - but then when I get home, Kamdyn wants to tell me about her day, Kevin & I are trying to eat at home more so I need to make dinner, that load of laundry needs to be folded, the dust is piled an inch thick on my coffee table...and yet, all I want to do is sit and play with or talk to my sweet baby.  And I'm told from every single mother I talk to about this to do just that.  The dust, laundry, cleaning, and other household stuff can wait...but this baby girl - well, she won't ever be 4 months old again.  ((sigh)) and so, this little blog of mine?  She's taken a hit.  A major hit.  Because she's been bumped down on my priority list by lots and lots of things.  But when I have a second when everyone is asleep - I can steal a few minutes and give you all a photo dump of this little miracle.

Little miss is 20 weeks old already!  She loves to kick, babble, squeal, smile, and giggle.  She's trying really hard to sit up and roll over.  She is also becoming interested in playing with chewing on toys.

When she went to the doctor a couple of weeks ago, she was about 25 inches long and almost 14 lbs. 

She hates being "carried like a baby" - we always have to have her on our hip or sitting up facing out.  She also very rarely wants to snuggle to go to sleep anymore.  Sad face for mommy.  She wants to be laid down and she puts herself to sleep.  {I do know how blessed I am about all of these things because I hear these sleeping habits are very hard to break or teach}

She is the sweetest, most well natured baby.  She is usually happy and content...unless she's hungry, in which case she is 0-60.  She is getting into a stage where she recognizes people...which is both good and bad.  I feel terrible when she doesn't want to go to someone, but the toothless grin I get when I pick her up from daycare each day is enough to melt my whole heart.

She has changed my life in 100,000 ways, and she is absolutely the very best part of every single day.

I'll try to be a better blogger...but having a less adorable distraction would really help that cause alot.

Happy Friday everyone!

Monday, June 30, 2014

These days...

How possibly have 5 weeks flown by since I've been on my little blog home?!

Quite honestly, I miss it.  A lot.  I miss connecting with all of my blog friends.  I miss having this little outlet for my thoughts.

I promised myself I would give myself a little time to adjust to being a mom.  I promised myself I wouldn't "busy-up" my spare time, but that I would hold, snuggle, play with and love on my newborn.  However, I also promised myself I wouldn't lose sight of the things that were important to me before I became a mom.  And this blog is one of those things.

I feel like this little blog is having a little bit of an identity crisis.  For an entire year it has been a place people have come to see an incredible, "feel-good" story unfold.  To get a dose of "there really are still great people in this world".  And while every single day when I look at this face...

...I am reminded of the miraculous way she was brought into this world and so very thankful - the reality is that this little blog of mine is going to have to return to a little bit of normalcy.  Sometimes I still look back on the past year of my life and I literally cannot believe that really happened to me.  I am so thankful that this story has been so inspiring to so many people.  And while obviously, our story isn't "over", it's much more "normal"...and we are so happy it is.  These days, I'm thankful to get up and feed my baby at 5:00 am.  These days, I change clothes more times in 24 hours than I used to in 72 hours because the smell of puke just isn't my thing.  These days, I live for big toothless grins like this:

And I couldn't be happier.  However, I feel like each day when people log in to see this blog - it's a let-down of sorts because I no longer have big, huge miracles to share with you.  I no longer have tear jerking posts to write.  So for the last few weeks, I've really been thinking a lot about why I should or shouldn't continue to blog.  Here's what I've come up with:

While I don't have those things to blog about anymore, I do have normal, everyday life with my adorable baby to blog about.  I do have "I'm-about-to-pull-my-hair-out" mommy moments to blog about.  I still have organizing and other projects that some people might like to see.  And on top of all of that, the entire reason I started blogging was to keep an online chronicle of our lives that my kids could one day look back on and read.  I want my family who lives far away to see some of the things our little family does from day-to-day.  And quite frankly, I want all of you who I have never met, yet prayed us through our journey, to get to experience a small piece of this miracle you all helped come true.

So, I am committed to continuing to blog...about my incredibly boring, repetitive, blessed, amazing life.  I hope you will join me.  :)

Lots of Love -

Monday, May 26, 2014

Happy Memorial Day

Memorial Day always marks the beginning of summer - pools open, long weekend, typically warm weather, picnics, grilling out, extra family time...it a great weekend!

This year is certainly no different.  But each year on Memorial Day I genuinely try to stop and think about the real reason for this holiday.  I am so thankful for the men and women who defend our country and the freedoms we enjoy.  :)

And Kamdyn is celebrating too :)

6 Weeks

She's patriotic today because it's Memorial Day :)

5 Weeks

{a week late - sorry!}

Monday, May 12, 2014

4 Weeks

This week she has started really focusing her eyes, smiling more, and making noises as she is beginning to discover her voice.  In addition, she's really getting good at sticking her tongue out {as evidenced by this picture}  :)

I also thought it would be fun to share some random pics {since I have approximately 4,873 pictures each week}

Sooooo, here's a little photo dump -

Nap time with daddy is awesome!
chatting with sissy
On Mother's Day after she asked Kim to be her God Mother
Working so hard to use her hands!
Soooooo sleepy.  :)
That's it for this week!  Have a fabulous week, friends!

Saturday, May 10, 2014

'Twas the Night before Mother's Day...

...and I cannot stop thinking about how overwhelmingly thankful I am to not be dreading tomorrow.  For the first time in 4 years, I am not wishing tomorrow would be over before it's even begun.

I would literally cry myself to sleep on the night before Mother's Day.  I would cry because I didn't want to go to church and see all the moms with their adorable children.  I would cry because when we went to lunch with my family I would need to smile an be happy to celebrate my incredible mom and sister for the wonderful mothers that they are...but I still felt left out.  I would cry because even though my sweet husband always did a little celebrating because I am Kaitlyn's step-mom, it didn't change the fact that I wasn't a "real" mom.  I would cry because every solitary place I went, there were mothers.  I would cry because quite frankly, it's not fair.

Tonight, as I'm sitting on my couch looking at the little miracle who has made me a mom - I cry for different reasons.  I am so, so thankful to be her mom.  And I have realized that while I think about Julie most every day anyway, Mother's Day will always be a day that she will be in the top of my mind.  While Kamdyn will grow up calling her Aunt JuJu - the reality is that Julie is her birthmother and Kamdyn wouldn't be here without her.  And I wouldn't be a mother without her.  So, not only will I be celebrating being a mom tomorrow, every year on Mother's Day, I will celebrate Julie...for giving me my reason to celebrate.

With all the thankfulness I have in my heart, there is still a little place of sadness for all the women who are sad tonight thinking about tomorrow.  I pray that I never forget what that feels like.  While that might sound strange to most of you, I actually think that pain makes me a better mom.  That pain reminds me how badly I wanted to be a mom.  That pain allows me to be compassionate and empathetic to all those women who are experiencing pain caused by infertility, loss, or loneliness.

I will spend my day tomorrow celebrating moms, being thankful that someone in this world finally calls me Mama, and praying for those who desperately wish they felt like they had a reason to celebrate tomorrow.  I hope you will join me.

Lots of Love -

Monday, May 5, 2014

3 Weeks

And a side-by-side from last week {which is deceiving because she's sitting up better this week.  Last week she was a little 'floppy' - but still, she looks so much bigger}!

She is such a good baby!  She is so calm and just goes with the flow...except when she's hungry - then she loses her mind.  That girl is serious about her food.  :)

That's all for this week -

Saturday, May 3, 2014

2 Weeks

1 Week

I have had so many people ask me to keep blogging - and quite honestly, I have really loved being able to look back thru this entire experience and see pictures and read my thoughts.  I plan to take a picture of her each week so you can all watch her grow...I'll take it each Monday, so it will probably be up on Monday night or Tuesday morning.  I haven't decided if I will type much or just put a picture up...we shall see.  :)

Anyway, here's Week 1 -

Friday, May 2, 2014

Kamdyn's Birth Story

As everyone is well aware, we had a scheduled induction for 39 weeks 1 day - which was 4/14/14.  Our amazing doctor allowed us to go into the hospital at midnight on 4/14, so we were able to begin the induction medication and then try to get some sleep.  Here is the last pregnant bump picture I snapped of Julie once we got to the hospital.

After they got the medication started, we tried to get some sleep.  When I woke up the next morning, the doctor came in to check Julie to see if they could break her water.  She hadn't progressed at all.  In fact, Kamdyn was higher than she had been during the office visit the week before.  Little stinker was just comfy in there.  Sooooo, sweet Julie walked laps.  And laps.  And laps.  They changed positions. Anything the sweet nurses could think of to get that baby out.  Julie passed some time reading magazines.

Dan was such a trooper.  It was cold in the room.  He had planned to head home once she got checked in, but we weren't sure how quickly labor would progress, so we made him stay.  He's such an amazing guy.

As they came back in to check her, she had made progress - so they were able to break her water.  At that point, labor intensified so she got her epidural.  After that, we continued to pass the time on our phones, reading magazines, and cracking ourselves up.

At about 7:00 PM, they came in to check her and determined we were ready to have a baby.  I just had no possible idea the profound ways my life was about to change.  But look at how adorable Julie is...seriously, who looks like this 5 minutes before giving birth?!

Kevin was able to help deliver Kamdyn {which is why he was wearing gloves} and I was prepared to kangaroo with Kamdyn (skin to skin contact) immediately after she was born {which is why I'm wearing a gown}.

I quite frankly don't have words for the next 20 minutes of my life, so I will just take you on a little picture timeline through the most defining moments of my life so far.  Simply incredible.

Every dream come true
The incredible Dr. Aronson
Love at first sight.
Meeting Sissy for the first time
"Thank you for my sister"
My soul sister.  We are so blessed that she chose us.
Our first picture as a family of 4
She was pissed.  Like "someone chopped my arm off" screams.
What a little peanut :)
{7 lbs 12 oz, 19 inches long}
Meeting her Kanga face to face.  The most important person in her life up until this point.  I pray that the bond they share will be a lifelong one.  I know the bond we share certainly is.  I just don't even have words for how thankful I am for her.

I so badly wish I had a picture of Dan holding her on the day she was born, but he was the photographer and I was not in my right mind.  :)  I'm working on a whole entire post just for Dan.  He is a remarkable man - he is for sure the wind beneath Julie's wings and equally responsible for the miracle of Kamdyn.
Peeking :)
After a bath and with a bow in her hair.  So sweet.
The love I felt for her in the moment she was handed to me is something I both feared I would never experience and was terrified I wouldn't feel even if I did get to experience it.  We are head over heals in love with her and feel so very blessed that God chose us to be her parents.

I'll be back soon with her first two week updates and some other pictures from her first few weeks of life.  Before I go, I want to genuinely thank every single person who has ever read and prayed for our family.  This little blog that started as a way for me to keep family near and far updated on our little journey to a baby has turned into a place where people I've never met pray for our family, check in weekly to see how things are going, and have taken a genuine interest in Kamdyn's story.  To all of you - thank you.  

We love you -